Ghosts of the past

In no way is it well advised to dwell in the past. Human mind, however, is of weak nature (until we all become enlightened ;). Sometimes the past keeps on haunting and an attempt to rationally dissolve the situation is of little use. All that matters is now, the current moment - what decisions you make now. So, what could we do in order to overcome the irrational self, which seems to have this terrifying hold of us?

There is nothing one can "do". Your irrational self knows more about you than your rational self would like to admit. OK, maybe you could go into the Amazon jungle, meet up a shaman and drink some DMT / ayahuasca compound and face your inner demons, but I guess that's not a feasible solution for the most of us at least. What I've come to notice is that thoughts of certain events, after some time, end up somewhere where your rational self cannot see. They have been blocked out so as not to harm your ego, your rational self. Then, certain events reminding you of the past may invoke those thoughts, and once again inflict pain. It seems it is an everlasting, vicious circle with no end in sight. Unless...

Maybe it would be worthwhile to try to connect with your irrational self by any means necessary - be it meditation, psychedelics, self-exploration via rational methods, etc. It might be beneficial for the sake of one's mental health, which, in today's world, seems to be at the brink of abyss with all the shit we have to put up with. Communicate with this hidden entity and see what it tells you.

Another, less efficient but relieving way, would be to communicate with other people of significance. This would help one to process and express the feelings, which originate from the irrational self. Human being needs other people, since we all are in a way connected in the grand scheme of things. So why not de-pressurize your mind by means of communication.

It seems that "communication" with either yourself or other people is the key issue in dissolving the ghosts of the past. In other words, in my opinion, this means honesty with everybody - most importantly, with yourself. Honesty is a human quality more and more uncommon. Let us then try to be honest.

Happy and honest new year 2011!


Now playing Sonata Arctica - Caleb:

Go out, create thunder, and stand right under / That old apple tree / Where the snakes let him feed on / Lost hopes, all those kind words could hurt him even more, now / Somehow, lost one more way back home. / Out on the lake, he rows towards a monster he should’ve been running away from, years ago. / The past had made him blind to the way he’d turned the pain into a way of life.