All those moments will be lost.. like tears.. in rain.

Think what would happen, if we were given a chance to go back to the turning points of our lives. The turning points are not some grand events - they may be as simple as lifting a finger or saying a word, or words. And these small things made your life so much different than what it would have been, had you done something even slightly differently.

Let's think at the implications if we could go back. We would have infinite amount of possibilities to recreate our own life, since even the tiniest difference (say, you would make another kind of thought than originally, which physically would manifest as some nerve atoms moving differently in your brain) could generate a whole new, parallel reality. Or universe, however you would like to call it. Anyway, your life might shape up to something completely different than what it would have been. Actually, every smallest amount of time differential is a chance for this reality to disperse into again infinite branches, since every moment can be played out in infinite amount of ways. In that sense it seems there is no point in the ability to change one's life. You never know how it's going to end up because at the time you change your reality at one point in time, the future becomes unclear.

OK, say we do not consider such a theoretical approach, in which every time differential is meaningful - rather let's concentrate on the actual turning point event, which is measurable and perceivable in humane reality as well. If I could change the event, which I (apparently) thought was the root cause for my unhappiness in the future that I've lived, I would still be unsure how I would end up in the upcoming future, just like in the above theoretical approach.

For the above reasons I would like to postulate: there is no sense in wishing things had gone differently, since this life we are now living is all we have got. Everything we have done and said and felt has been just perfect. It has been just the way it has been meant to be. It is the present, which is of the utmost importance - not the past nor the future. We are what we make out of this moment.

Still, I can't help but to feel wistful when thinking about some events in my life, which would have, according to my brains, led into getting to live a better life, had I done something differently. It is so easy to delve into the alternative reality, which, of course, is full of joy and happiness. At the same time I feel happiness for knowing that I'm living the life, which, considering these aspects, is juuust perfect. Who knows what kind of things I would have encountered, if I had decided to do things differently..

When you live your life, live the present to the fullest! Although, it is also true that to not to decide holds all the possibilities for the future since nothing is determined.. unfortunately it also prevents one from living. So, make a decision for yourself every moment and live. On decision we determine that this is my reality and the way I choose to see and live it. On deciding upon a thing:

"All those [potential] moments will be lost.. like tears.. in rain." *sigh*.