Thoughts from a balcony in Brno

It suddenly struck me. Thinking about one of my relatives I now think I know why one does not want to do things most of us consider normal. Why would one confine him/herself to living alone far from anything.. and if this person is invited to places, he would refuse the offers? What's the point in all that "hermiting"? This question has eluded me for a long time..

Man, I just bathed properly for a month... I'm feeling relaxed and watching down from the balcony of the 4th floor of my hostel (or 3rd floor in non-Finnish standards of floor-numbering :) ). People are bustling about, eating ice-cream, walking with their special ones or not-so-much-anymore-special-ones ;).. The atmosphere is soothing.

Back to the point. The reason for refusing all the things we consider fun things.. I think it is simple: one is wise beyond our imagination. This person is enlightened one, the one who sees the truth about life: The more you want or do stuff, the more you see and hear about things... the more you will start wanting. By refusing from all this glory and wonders.. one will not crave for any more than he/she already has. The enlightened one knows this, and will gladly stay put, for the one knows only as much as is necessary to be able to be content with the life he/she leads. It is so simple. The true buddha.

Which is to say, I'm too far in this mess.. I've seen too much to retreat.. I'm a lost cause, doomed to gasp in awe at the miracles of the world endlessly... never to find beauty in simplicity... and face the agonizing consequences: this world with all its bittersweet wonders. I hope I will learn to be the newborn child again.