Everything is wrong

It is humanely impossible to describe the state of flow in which I am currently living in. Everything seems to be finally coming together big time. Everything I participate in or do seems to produce unbelievable kicks and energy. Negative feelings are next to none. Maybe I just have it lucky, don't know. I like to think it's more about the choices I have made in the past regarding my life, of how I chose to lead it. I am glad of each and every choice I have made in my life so far, however questionable they were from someone else's perspective (hi mom, dad).

Even though I sometimes like to brag about stuff, and feel proud over them, I do not feel more inferior or superior than anyone else in this world. Admittedly, from an external point of view it may seem like I am narcissistic person. But a narcissistic person would feel superior to in relation to other people. I want to be truly humble and listen to every voice in this world. I want to learn from them. I also want to be proud of who I am.

Enough of the introduction, the reason I wrote was, again, because of my excessive pondering of stuff. Now, I have it very well for myself, I think. So what could be wrong. Umm, let's see.. everything? Yes.

You see, when I feel everything is well, I have attached myself to this feeling of feeling good. This feeling requires the current state of affairs to be present. So, imagine something changed in my life. Everything would not feel so easy anymore. Would I then feel the flow I am feeling now? Probably not. That's the worst. How can a human ever be happy, since (you know the drill) "the only constant in life is change". So, suddenly I feel very fragile. Will I be able to maintain my state of mind regardless of the everchanging surroundings? That is what bothers me currently.

Maybe I should quit thinking :)