Human

In the last four days I have felt / been:

-happy when seeing or talking to dear people (both foreign and Finnish)
-crying in a car when listening to music that induced some strong feelings. Can't actually remember crying that much at least in..well I don't even know!
-drunk and happy with the company I had
-hung over and happy and energetic - well enough to cook super-good food and make my own chocolate out of coconut oil, cocoa butter, cocoa beans etc.
-content over getting my apartment to look like nearly something I would call home (yes I have materialism in me at least some amount, forgive me ;) )
-in sauna with my little brother, my mother and father, sweating my ass off
-been uneasy because my blood pressure is up, for reasons unknown to me. Maybe I should go jogging or stop stressing.. Maybe I just need a good back massage from someone who really cares for me and so that I could feel (preferably) her warmth flow through me, making me peaceful at least for that short moment.
-trying to start things smoothly in my work place. Unfortunately, I've been only partially successful in this respect.

Love. Hate. Courage. Fear. Jealousy. Pride. Addiction. Despair. Joy. Pain. Compassion. Faith. Prediction. Compassion. Love. Joy. Human.